Thursday, July 22, 2010

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18 months. 18 months struggling with depression and anxiety. I've neglected this blog for far too long. It's been a busy 18 months. After my last post, I started having trouble getting through just the basics each day. It took all I had to get up, go to work, and keep up with the housework each day. Even medication didn't help much beyond easing the anxiety attacks I was having. In May or 2009, King B and I lost another little angel. I was sent to a reproductive endocrinologist who basically said it was simple age. Which is what I figured it was, I am, after all, in my 40's now. My regular endocrinologist agreed to put me on a small dose of synthroid to boost my thyroid levels from the low end of normal - to smack dab in the middle of normal. And in August, Deke came into being. Because of what happened with both Daisy and Angelus, we didn't tell many people for the longest time. And even after we told people, I didn't want to talk about it at all. It took until I started feeling him move throughout each day for me to start feeling "safe" with the pregnancy. Deke is now almost 3 months old, chunking up very nicely, and is a joy.

I'd like to try blogging again. I'm not sure I'll manage it, with 3 teens, a toddler, an infant, and starting back to teaching 3rd grade in September. But I would like to try. Even if only for myself - to document recipes, patterns, frugality tips and the like that I design and discover. If I have any readers, please pray for me.

Blessings to you,

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